Saturday, April 29, 2006

Pet peeves

i have one pet peeve that always gets to me. not that im angry about it or anything, but its just...why?

i email someone and i ask questions in the email. when they write back they dont answer them. im not sure if people think i am asking pointless questions just so i can type or to make the email look longer or what. now i have to ask the same question in the next email i send them.

i have some friends that will only answer about 25% of the questions i ask. thats even worse than just one question because not only to i have to reask the 75% and hope they read/respond to those again, but i have to address what they wrote back and hope i dont have further questions that may get lost in the shuffle. anyone else have this dilemma?

Friday, April 28, 2006

40

thursday i went golfing again. this round was much better than my round on monday. i shot a 40. granted it was at hickory knoll which is not a tough course, but i am rather proud of it. four pars and one six was my worst hole. if only i knew how to play that consistent every time i play............

Its still thursday to me.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

When it all goes bad

today did not go as planned. went in to work early so i could get a few things done and planned on staying late so i could finish and have it done. well right from the git-go things did not go my way. i left work late and i didnt even get a quarter of what i wanted to get done.

i think it can be all traced back to last night. i played in a golf league. i have not played since last summer and even then i only played a handful of times all last year. i started the night with three pars. not to shabby for me. but then...

the fourth hole is where it all went bad. i dont think since my first year ever playing golf have i scored so bad on one hole. i ended up with three bad holes. if i would have double bogeyed the three holes i did bad on i would have had a 44, which would have been great for me. so the fourth hole: one tree shot, one shot out of bounds, six from the sand and three putts about sums up the granuer of the hole. thats not all the shots but gives a general idea as to how bad the hole was for me. by the end of the hole all i could do was laugh, it wasnt worth the frustration.

i am hoping the red wings will win tonight and help turn my luck around for the rest of the week. i am going to need it since i didnt get done the work i needed to today.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Good news about running

i ran farther than i thought, so my time wasnt as bad as i had originally thought. thats about all the good news i have about running.

how long does it take to have posts go on the blog? it says its published but whenever i go to look at it, its not there.

Talking on the phone

im not a big fan of talking on the phone most of the time. what can i say im a guy, most of the time conversations are brief and succinct. i think its the awkward silences that make them less enjoyable for me. its inevitable that the silences will come, and when they do many times they are uncomfortable. when its family or something its not too bad but when the person is not as close as a family member what do you say? in that moment im desperately thinking of something to say or talk about but the longer i try to find something the harder it becomes for my brain to function.

that is why i think email is great. you put down what you had to talk about and the awkward silence problem is solved, atleast type A silence. it doesnt take care of type B silence, the email silence. is the lag time from writing the letter to getting a response because they are busy, or they dont know what to write (type B silence), or they are writing out of a sense of obligation because you wrote them something. often before i write an email i ask myself if they will even care if i write anything at all or will they see a response as an obligation?

maybe its just the devil whispering in my ear trying to convince me that finding acceptance in others is important.

ps. for anyone reading this who receives emails from me, its not an indictment on anyone specifically but just an over all feeling/random thoughts

Captivating

my sunday night small group is going through the book Captivating. the last chapter had a quote by Frederick Buechner from The Sacred Journey that caught my attention:

"The trouble with steeling yourself against the harshness of reality is that the same steel that secures your life against being destroyed secures your life against being opened up and transformed."

how true. there are so many things in life that i try to protect myself from so i dont get hurt, but in reality im just stopping myself from letting God do his part.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Is this real?

http://usarps.com/site/index.php
i came across this very interesting website. not sure if this is really serious or just a joke. at the top go to history or science sections. good stuff.

Friday, April 21, 2006

Running

so ive been trying to get back into shape. on vacation in florida i ran five times, two miles each time. not to bad i thought to myself, everytime was faster than the last even. keeping that habit going has been a little difficult thus far back home. ran two miles tonight. seemed farther here than it did in florida. my time was not very good either. i guess i have to start somewhere though.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Thumbs up Thursday


not sure how to get the heading that dave has but here is my thumbs up thursday pic.

someday maybe ill make it there to see a game. truly a theatre of dreams.

Rules:

Post your Thumbs-Up Thursday pic on your own blog and then put the link int the comments.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

my reading

i was reading Matthew 11 yesterday and a couple things jumped out at me. the first was verses 20-24, where Jesus is talking about unrepentent cities, which ones rejected him and comparing them to other cities. one grabbed my attention as particularly bad. i have read these verses before and i never really thought about it, but he compares capernaum to sodom. as in sodom and gomorrah(sp.). if its going to be better for sodom on the day of judgement than for capernaum how bad is that going to be. if memory serves, sodom and gomorrah were the worst cities ever. well maybe not ever but it cant be good for capernaum to be worse off than sodom. they were burned to the ground for thier wickedness. it would be a bad day in capernaum if you were sitting at home and someone dropped off the gospel of matthew for some light afternoon reading.

the second set of verses that jumped out at me was 28-30. verse 30, "For my yoke is easy and my burden is light"(NIV), im sure is familiar to most but reading the preceding verses kind of shed a new light on it for me. it talks about finding rest in Jesus. not just rest in Jesus, something i have heard before but it says those who are weary and burdened. in our society its very easy to forget that Jesus is there for us to be able to hand over what is weighing us down so that he can take care of it. even the trivial things i have to learn to give to Jesus. maybe its so hard to do becuase that is at the heart of what makes being a christian so difficult. giving Jesus everything and putting my selfish needs, desires, and worries to the side.

Monday, April 17, 2006

why?

why wont my blog publish my last post? maybe this one wont either. it says its doing it but when i view it its not there. why?

best show ever?

i enjoy watching tv. over the years there have been some good tv shows: The Cosby Show, Wings, X-Files, Macgyver, Alias, CSI, ER. while they have all been enjoyable and very good television shows they have not reached the top in my list of best shows ever. i think the best show ever has to go to 24. every week for the last five years it has produced a show that is truly unique and unforgettable. the plot is very rarely predictable and often is shocking to the point of audible gasps. every week i look forward to what new twists will be revealed. this week was no exception

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Meaning

life seems to fly by. im not overly involved or super busy but just the daily grind of life seems to go by so fast. pretty soon it will be my birthday and the year will be half over.

today gave me a chance to stop and think about what matters. having gone to church my whole life it seems like just another easter but to stop and really think about what that means is incredible. Jesus rose from the dead today.

what we celebrate on easter brings meaning to my life. everything i do has an impact. the fulfillment of a promise made hundreds of years before it occurred and which took place thousands of years ago has a huge impact on my life. Jesus Chirst's ultimate sacrifice for MY sins should do more than make me a nice person. i think too often i get caught up living just to get through the grind. christianity is not about just getting by. Jesus did not die for my sins so that i could just slide by. his death brings new meaning to everything i do. those around me should see Christ in me, everything i say, everything i do. do they? do people see Christs love through my life? is that enough?

no, no, no

sad but true. most people would probably say that im a nice guy. thats great but i dont think that Jesus died so i could be a nice guy. i am a pretty quiet person and sometimes its not easy for me to be vocal about what i believe. but im pretty sure it was alot harder what Christ did.

Christ's death and resurrection should not be a golden ticket into heaven but rather a reminder that my life has meaning.

"Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did." I John 2:6

Friday, April 14, 2006

Manchester and Napolean

sad day....... manchester uniteds title hopes slipped by through an amazing display of goalkeeping ability by sunderlands netminder. chelsea would have to really choke for anything to happen, but you never know. if manchester could go through a season without as many key injuries as the last two years, they may win the treble again.

on a happy note 'the benchwarmers' was a surprisingly funny movie. since jon heder, aka napolean dynamite' was in this movie i had to see it. i was optimistically hoping for something entertaining and the movie exceeded what i was expecting. if you enjoy the three lead actors in other movies, you should enjoy this one. obviously not an oscar contender but worth the price of admission, atleast for me.

God and the Geese

Easy to see where this story is going but I still liked the illustration.

There was once a man who didn't believe in God, and he didn't hesitate to let others know how he felt about religion and religious holidays. His wife, however, did believe, and she raised their children to also have faith in God and Jesus, despite his disparaging comments. One snowy eve, his wife was taking their children to service in the farm community in which they lived. They were to talk about Jesus' birth. She asked him to come, but he refused.
That story is nonsense!" he said. "Why would God lower Himself to come to Earth as a man? That's ridiculous!" So she and the children left, and he stayed home. A while later, the winds grew stronger and the snow turned into a blizzard. As the man looked out the window, all he saw was a blinding snowstorm.
He sat down to relax before the fire for the evening. Then he heard a loud thump.
Something had hit the window. He looked out, but couldn't see more than a few feet. When the snow let up a little, he ventured outside to see what could have been beating on his window. In the field near his house he saw a flock of wild geese.
Apparently they had been flying south for the winter when they got caught in the snowstorm and couldn't go on. They were lost and stranded on his farm, with no food or shelter. They just flapped their wings and flew around the field in low circles, blindly and aimlessly. A couple of them had flown into his window, it seemed.
The man felt sorry for the geese and wanted to help them. The barn would be a great place for them to stay, he thought.
It's warm and safe; surely they could spend the night and wait out the storm. So he walked over to the barn and opened the doors wide, then watched and waited, hoping they would notice the open barn and go inside.
But the geese just fluttered around aimlessly and didn't seem to notice the barn or realize what it could mean for them. The man tried to get their attention, but that just seemed to scare them, and they moved further away.
He went into the house and came with some bread, broke it up, and made a bread crumb trail leading to the barn. They still didn't catch on.
Now he was getting frustrated. He got behind them and tried to shoo them toward the barn, but they only got more scared and scattered in every direction except toward the barn. Nothing he did could get them to go into the barn where they would be warm and safe. "Why don't they follow me?!" he exclaimed. "Can't they see this is the only place where they can survive the storm?"
He thought for a moment and realized that they just wouldn't follow a human. "If only I were a goose, then I could save them," he said out loud. Then he had an idea. He went into the barn, got one of his own geese, and carried it in his arms as he circled around behind the flock of wild geese.
He then released it. His goose flew through the flock and straight into the barn -- and one-by-one, the other geese followed it to safety.
He stood silently for a moment as the words he had spoken a few minutes earlier replayed in his mind: "If only I were a goose, then I could save them!" Then he thought about what he had said to his wife earlier. "Why would God want to be like us? That's ridiculous!" Suddenly it all made sense. That is what God had done. We were like the geese--blind, lost, perishing. God had His Son become like us so He could show us the way and save us. As the winds and blinding snow died down, his soul became quiet and pondered this wonderful thought. Suddenly he understood why Christ had come. Years of doubt and disbelief vanished with the passing storm. He fell to his knees in the snow, and prayed his first prayer.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Didnt really need this

so i just started this today and i have already spent too much time on it. im not computer literate enough to be able to change or add stuff easily so it is taking a while. very frustrating also. by the way my real name is not carl if anyone realized that yet.

Deserts

why did God make deserts bad for us? as i was eating a delicious cookie earlier, i was thinking that question to myself. why didnt God make deserts so that they were good for us or atleast neutral? i think i could eat deserts all day long. God clearly wasnt thinking ahead when he made vegetables and other 'healthy' food so bland and unappealing.


i wonder how long it will take before any of my friends actually read my blog?

First

not sure how much i will actually write here but here is my first entry. not so much into writing and such so this may be a short lived event.